Happy to have my Suboxone again. But all-in-all my biggest addiction is you, Laurien.

Done.

Every night I cry myself to sleep.  

Mitragyna speciosa is the only one who never said "no".

Fuck you, Subs.

The Sky Goddess

I found this piece of art showing the Goddess Nuit right in my own room. It's from the Luxor in France. Nuit is shown spreading her wings. It looks like a servant is playing music for her. Basically, it's a shrine to honor her.

Dear Opiates,

You're going to start making me happy again whether you like it or not. I'll never leave you. I can't afford to. We just need to take a break for a while, but I'll be back. I promise. Let's just give it a week or two.

Love,

Chris

PS. You make coloring books so much fun!

I'm not sure what it feels like to be on a woman's period. I never will. But I'm in opiate withdrawal. opiate addiction IS WORSE THAN ANY CHILDHOOD SICKNESS/FLU, BURNING IN A FIREPLACE, FREEZING IN PURE ICE, AND THE WORST BROKEN HEART IMAGINABLE, ALL AT THE SAME TIME. No one but the junkies will understand.

I want to recommend everyone reading this, if you haven't already, read Diary of a Drug Fiend.

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I am eternally grateful to be blessed with such a kind and loving fiance, Laurien. But I don't call her that, I call her Tiger. She's just absolutely amazing. Everything she does is like magick in itself. I long to be with her every minute of every day, and she knows it. Sadly she lives far away, but fortunately she lives in a beautiful place.

 

Love you, Tiger.

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law.

Love under law.

Love under will.

 

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